I really don't feel like it today, I'll do it tomorrow. That seems to be my mantra lately. In the meantime there is laundry that needs to be done, phone calls that need to be made, trips to the supermarket, and so on and so on. I am a procrastinator I must admit, and I have been working on this (one of my less positive traits) for years. It's a work in progress and it's been difficult for me at times. "But, I work well under pressure" is just an illusion I tell myself over and over. Truth be told (my truth that is), is that I'm more stress when I'm under pressure. I'm grouchy (especially to the ones I love) and I'm nervous and jittery (I think they call that adrenaline) and I'm just an all around b**ch! I mean grouch, I said grouch already sorry, I mean I'm a double grouch. Well, you know what I mean, I can be hard to live with. Oh yeah I really need that since I'm already going through perimenopause. Can you please pass me some mo' of that stress? And I'll take a double scoop of panic wit' that too, give thanks. The job gets done and it gets done well and on time, but why must I suffer in the process? Why do I take myself through all that sufferation ? Do I get pleasure out of pain? Nah ya'll I ain't going there. Look out!! Here comes fear!
In order for me to overcome procrastination find that I must not only proclaim it but face it, stand toe-to-toe with it. Walk up to it and tell it "I see you, now step aside I got stuff to do". Procrastination is a by-product of fear. That realization I have come to, so when I am stagnant (procrastinating) I recognize that I am in fear. Sometimes I recognize that I am saturated in fear. That's some heavy energy ya'll.
Like everything healing takes time and it is a process. I'm working on it one day at a time. I have my victories and my defeats, but I will not allow it to conquer me. I am much too power-full for that. Besides, I'm stubborn by nature. LOL!
There is a wonder-full ebook that deals with the subject of procrastination that I recommend highly it's called "Ima Do, Her Tomorrow Never Comes". It's written by Kimyon Zari. If you are reading this and you are a procrastinator, self-proclaimed, undercover or otherwise, pick up a copy of this book. Or, if someone you Love is a procrastinator get a copy for them. It's short, straight to the point, and hilarious.
Here's the link http://www.imadoebookonline.com/ Enjoy!
With Gratitude, Peace and Blessings to you all!
3 comments:
Hey Goddess,
You're not alone :) This post hit home for me. I've been putting off work that i could have easily completed ( i had plenty of time) but now I'm under the gun! so now I have no choice but to DO and tomorrow seems to already be here... i hear you Soeur Procrastination is a Thief with a fully loaded semi automatic clip!!!! Yes, I am shooting myself in the toe and muttering as i get through work!!
It always good to know that we are sisters in the same struggle...
Much love and Many Blessings Soeur,
Now you know this has to go on my site. Lol. Thank you Queen. I'm glad the ebook resonated with you. Trust, a lot of us, both women & men procrastinate thinking we work better under stress. On fact, its just a habit we need to look dead in the eye & deal handle her.;-0)
Again, thank you for sharing.
Excuse the typos...cell phone typing challenges me. Lol.
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